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shocked-collar · 21 hours ago

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tips for writing Lawrence? I really admire your writing.

IUKJ,MSEDNGBLKJGLESJLSDERG FIRSTLY THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU I'M LITERALLY SO STRUCK??? MY WRITING???? ADMIRABLE???? I FEEL LIKE MY TEETH ARE GONNA FALL OUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

*fixes suit and tie* anyway

reminder that i am not gato and these are all my interpretations. the best part about fandom communities is that each mind thinks so alike yet independently, and the way you write a character won't be exactly the way another person does and that's your own personal magic touch.

Just like Ren, Lawrence has certain rules I like to stay attached to. The problem with HIM though is he's such a wild card it's hard to know when these rules apply.

Rule one is to remember Lawrence is isolated. He's used to being on his own and doing things on his own so he doesn't expect or even reach out for help. The idea of another human being kind or helpful for no reason is foreign, if not unrealistic to him.

Rule two is to remember that Lawrence has a very, very specific routine he lives by every week, rarely with interruptions. He's a homebody. He likes things his way and can't have them any other way. It's irritating and gives him a very strange sense of urgency when they're not. This is dangerous because that urgency can very quickly become aggression, as can a lot of things.

Rule three is to remember Lawrence is human. He's pretentious as fuck and speaks so poetically of death, wants to die so very badly, has done incredibly terrible things to people in the name of art, mentally separates himself from the public, believes he's better off locked up somewhere, yet reacts as any other person does to very many things. He says he wants to die, yet cries when his life is threatened or he's scared. He's certain he hates people and people hate him, yet yearns for the company of others who understand him and partakes in communities, even if just online. He says he's better off inside, yet left his house to meet a friend 2 weeks into talking online. He's a 'terrible person,' yet only takes MC home because he didn't want to leave them out there all alone. He's more human than he realizes.

Rule four is to remember he's proficient in gaslighting. Lawrence doesn't think the way other people do! Everything and anything can have meaning, and it's usually what he wants to see. He can make up anything on the fly if it protects him from guilt, fault, sorrow, anxiety, whatever it is he needs to be shielded from. He's quite the brat, so challenging him on any of his interpretations makes him irrationally bothered and he may not even speak to you anymore afterwards. He also uses this mental-protection to keep his world view in order, like in the situation in BTD2 when Ren leaves and he takes it out on you. It was REN who insisted you hangout a while, it was REN who left on a whim- but to Lawrence, you being there at all was the problem and it's all your fault.

Rule five is to keep the image of creepy in mind! Lawrence embodies the type of person you wouldn't want to be caught alone in an elevator with. He just radiates 'bad person' vibes, and his smell and quietness of his voice doesn't help.

And finally, rule six is to remember that Lawrence is a wild card. How he behaves depends on pretty much every single individual circumstance in whatever situation he's in. If he's uncomfortable he could be irritable, if the room has more than 2 other people in it he could be feeling intimidated, if he's meeting with a friend online he could be hesitant and scared, if something scary happens big or small it could launch him into a panic, anxiety, or aggressive attack, if someone's talking and their mouth sounds too wet it could make him hurt himself, if he's bored but nothing seems entertaining enough it could force him to dissociate, he could like this taste or feeling one day and absolutely hate it the next, his opinions on specific people change like the static on TV...

I like to think of Lawrence like an alligator, as they're opportunistic feeders and usually don't attack without provocation. Problem is with Law, you don't really know how you provoked him half the time. He's such an interesting, confusing character that I'm not even sure how to write it down in a way that makes sense. It all really depends on how YOU want to write him.

AGAIN, I'm not sure I helped??? this one is. a lot worse than rens imo. BUT I DID MY BEST AND AGAIN THANK U SM FOR LIKING MY WRITING HEEHEEHEHUEHENRKJDFGNDFLKJGGF

#btd #boyfriend to death #lawrence oleander #btd2 #SORRY THIS TOOK AN HOUR #IVE BEEN JUMPING BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN IT AND OTHER STUFF

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amrass · 2 days ago

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A take on Micah Bell's full backstory

So this is a new kind of post to me, a big-ass fan theory of sorts, but I've always enjoyed the more out-there takes in fandom. Also I've been sitting on this for months so it's nice to get it out.

In short, I made up a full backstory for Micah from the few scraps of information that are given in game. I'll go through some of those details first, then go through my own take in four sections:

Part 1: The way of the grandfather/the legacy of Micah Bell the First Part 2: Early years/Competitive survival Part 3: Young Adulthood/O'Driscoll Boy!Micah Part 4: Later Adulthood/Evil Bounty Hunter!Micah

(Note that the 1st and 2nd part will spoil my fanfic series The Devils, but it can still be read, as it's full of juicier details.)

Canon and semi-canon details from his backstory

So we don't know a whole lot, hints only given by select dialogue and a newspaper clip. Micah is the third in line in a family of outlaws, and ran together with his father and brother Amos for a while. His father was wanted for murder all over the place, and seems like a man with dark charm ("Ain't life grand?") and a temper (nearly killing Amos). Amos, who ran away from the family tradition, wanting nothing to do with it. You can read about them on various online encyclopedias, but know that some of those are written by uh, creative fans, and AI, so there is often errors. It's irritating, but it is what it is.

An interesting bit is the interview with Micah's actor Peter Blomquist (I have tried to google but am having trouble finding it; please send link if you have it!) is the mention that Micah's father was bad, but his grandfather was worse. Tbh I think this is a bit from a backstory that was among the things that were scrapped from the final game.

So, of his grandfather we know almost nothing, except that he was wild. And that he was maybe worse than Micah III's father. But that also means that the Second was also better than the First somehow.

My take

Part 1: The way of the grandfather / the legacy of Micah Bell the First

I think the grandfather was the head of the family as long as he lived. I also think he imposed a terrible burden upon Micah Bell II (and III).

It's interesting if the Second tries to be better than the First in that when he got a woman pregnant, he tried to hide her and their two children, because he didn't want to force the Bell training upon them. But it slipped out one evening due to drink. The older forced the younger to reveal the locations of the woman and the two sons.

And so the training of the two new Bells begins, harsh and unrelenting. Shooting, robbing, killing. And more 18+ than I feel is necessary in this post, but yeah, disturbing stuff.

Micah being the one to inherit the name most likely means that he is older than Amos. But the thing is that Micah gives off serious little brother vibes to me. I dunno exactly why. Vibes, man.

So, I thought an interesting twist would be: what if the name of Micah Bell was something that had to be earned? What if they'd been given different names originally, Amos and something unknown, before the latter was the better outlaw and became the Micah Bell III we know. He is one of the fastest shots in the game, and a competition like that, begun from early age, could've given him initiative to train harder, desperate to earn the name.

I am a cruel writer. How can I make this crueler? I got it:

Their grandfather identifies quickly that one brother is weaker and easier to manipulate than the other. Not in physical strength, but in terms of familial bonds. Maybe he is less charming than Amos, and makes fewer friends, because idk he is busy eating bugs (he seems like the kind of kid who would eat bugs). Or maybe their mother, before the arrival of the men, makes the boys attend a local church school, and Amos finds love in the religion while his brother stares out the window. Not because he's evil but because he's easily bored.

So the grandfather only tells one brother of the competition about earning the name, and it's not Amos. He also says the one who loses the right to the name has to be killed by the winner because there can only be one Micah Bell for each generation, that's how it has always been done. Maybe he speaks the truth, maybe he lies, but no matter what he is efficiently cutting the bond between the two brothers.

Part 2: Early years / Competitive survival

So, that is how Micah Bell III becomes Micah Bell III, as a boy and as a youth. I'll just go back to calling him Micah to make it easier, also because calling him anything else would kind of feel like waving a death sentence in the face of a child after I wrote The Devils. Because even people who commit atrocities have been a child once.

Growing up, Micah's survival depends upon winning over his brother. This is where his idea of winning and losing comes from. It doesn't help that his father yaps on and on about a similar philosophy, but where he's all words, Micah is all acts.

Micah never finds out that Amos doesn't know about the competition. He resents him from not trying harder. For making Micah look bad, training so hard so he can kill his fool brother, lying awake at night and mentally preparing for it. But if friendships are rope, then familial bonds are chains; almost impossible to cut.

He lies awake at night and stares at Amos on the other side of the fire, missing when they curled up together back when it did not feel like sleeping next to an enemy. It eats the child up, all that training. Not much left of who he was or could be. Hey, at least he doesn't have time to eat bugs.

But maybe, if their grandfather falls ill, Micah is the one to kill him. Unable to cope with the idea of killing his brother, he shoots him in the face. And then he turns to Amos, grinning, because they're free.

Amos does not see himself as freed. He sees murder. He thinks it is only because Micah saw their grandfather as weak, when he secretly had been the strongest force in their life. Micah walks towards him, covered in their grandfather's blood (I do like a dramatic scene), and Amos turns away, throws up and tells him to stay away. Micah feels shock, then loss, then rage. Micah Bell II would probably react with pure rage, but Micah is so used to surviving things at this point, he survives that too. None of their relationships are all that salvageable from this moment, especially not after Amos runs away.

This makes me think of another HC of mine, namely that Micah is the one to kill Amos, which has its own post and arguments here. But if you add in the theory present in this post, it makes even more sense to why he'd killed Amos, finishing what he had been trained to do since he was a kid.

Part 3: Young adulthood / O'Driscoll Boy!Micah

Did you know Micah's outfits have a bunch of half-hidden, green accents them? I've seen it on his scarf, his gloves, his horse saddle ...

This is basically copy pasting a bit from a Twitter thread I made, but I just really like the idea of Micah being an ex-O'Driscoll Boy mainly due to his green scarf. It's more of a teal, but maybe it's a faded O'Driscoll green. Colm would've valued a gun like him. His ruthlessness and boot-licking, too. Especially if he was younger, lonelier and easier to sway. After his brother leaves and his father dies, he'll have no one.

And while he is a bit of a lone wolf hermit, Colm could've reminded him of his father, like Dutch probably does, but I really like the thought of Colm reminding Micah of his grandfather. He wouldn't be too unfamiliar with the gang dynamic, and find more homeliness in that than in a normal family. There's a well-known tendency among abused kids to unconsciously seek out relationships that mirror their broken families. Paradoxically, the lack of safety feels safe.

Of course, the Bell heritage is too alive within him to render him into another nameless O'Driscoll Boy, so he and Colm eventually fall out. He goes back to being a lone wolf, but maybe he's made some connections, which make gathering a troop easier, especially for bank robberies (Skinny, Cleet, Joe...). But he mostly stays alone.

During RDR2, when Colm was hanged, maybe Micah felt the green scarf catch strangely, while in camp or while out riding (or even watching the hanging happen from a dark back alley in Saint Denis). Micah reached behind to the nape of his neck, feeling as though someone had held him there, squeezed, and then let go.

Part 4: Later Adulthood / Evil bounty hunter!Micah

So I'm a total sucker for the theory of Micah being a form of a hitman that's like an evil bounty hunter. The main reason for this is the fact that Dutch's bounty poster can be found at Micah's camp outside Strawberry. But also because my first thought when we first met him in the game was "Omg, Loco from The Great Silence, my favorite evil bounty hunter villain!" They have some of the same color scheme in the winter outfit, and I think it's a reference.

Loco has the same life philosophy as Micah, as seen in this quote: "You're on the side of the law. We, we're on the side of the law of survival… survival of the fittest!" and kind of in this one (ok I'm putting it here because it's so cool, he's just burst into the hideout of his own evil bounty hunter gang) "Since when are wolves afraid of wolves?"

I like the idea of Micah is sick to death of gang life but knows enough of it from his time as an O'Driscoll to infiltrate hideouts and gangs easy, to reap bounties from the lawful people he's been robbing up to now and occasionally still do. Maybe the Van der Lindes weren't the first gang he brought down. That's fun to think about.

Also, I love it when asshole villains do the "right" thing. Partly why I love Micah's character; as an antagonist, he brings down Arthur and John, directly and indirectly.

(Ooh this is beside the point, but that's actually one of my issues with the narratives of the RDR and GTA games. They have this core of nihilism that actively hinders their stories from becoming as great as their characters, but also makes the games sell easier. Maybe another post, or maybe fandom isn't the place for critiques.)

Anyway, Micah just didn't think anyone could ever get to him, but then again he'd never met anyone like Dutch. Hell, the man even had the same dark charm like his father, enjoying similar exclamations. I think he hoped to recreate something of his old family dynamic with Dutch, who was kinder than his grandfather, father and Colm. We all know how that went. His last words was still a compliment to Dutch though. As if it was still a competition, or a game, in the end.

*walks a few steps away, twirls, shrugs, falls face first into the snow*

Here's another pic of Loco (along with the GIF in the beginning):

The end

Yeah I have not much more to say here lol. Feel free to use and expand upon this theory, or make your own by taking out of some of the foundations, could be cool to see. I'd love a shoutout, but it seems shoutouts are going out of fashion, which is sad. Put the community back into fandom! Stop it with the competition! Make friends! Lmao "be less like Micah", but yeah, I guess it stands. I see so many people worship canon like a deity. Please have more fun!!!

Anyway, thank you for reading ☺️

#amras writes #micah bell #red dead redemption 2 #red dead fandom #red dead redemption #rdr #rdr2 #rdr fandom #rdr2 micah #rdr2 community #colm o'driscoll #o'driscoll boys #amos bell #micah bell the first #micah bell the second #fan theory #dutch van der linde #rdr2 fandom

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kingsdee · 20 hours ago

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Warriors au. Originally had a whole explanation but tumblrs a bitch and deleted my entire draft so this will be quick! [ I was typing. For 40 minutes. ] first time posting in this fandom,, please be kind I haven't actually interacted with the fandom before

[ renamed whitewing to Darksun because a. Fun b. Theme of odd sky events c. It feels like a protagonist name trust. Also all white cats are boring let me have my fun ]

Au where Firestar dies from the dogs instead of bluestar which leads to a chain reaction where thunderclan and windclan get kicked out, the moonstone gets shattered, and everything sucks!!! Cloudtail is Cloudtsar in this au after becoming bluestar's deputy, however he still has 1 life and is an atheist because... no more moonstone. Deadfoot is also dead star because he deserves it and tallstar probably died in the battle since they lost let's be real.

Since fireheart is dead, I yoinked two of the cloud x bright kits and said "you're the new Squirrelflight and Leafpool I don't care how late you're canonically born" and they serve generally the same purpose, mind powers and all! Runningbrook is the only other cat on the journey other than Ambermoon [ Amberpaw at the time ] , and acts as the reasonable one among the two, and also gets to be our sort-of feathertail. She is a real cat I promise you she was there.

Star flower is their StarClan guide, being the only StarClan cat to find them after the moonstone was shattered [ since this also scattered the spirits ]. She's morally dubious at best and is definitely lying about what's going on, at least to some extent. She pretends to know far more than she does all the time too. This gives Runningbrook a general distrust towards StarClan cats. Starflower seemed somewhat good in legends---did cats change that much in StarClan?

But yeah everything goes bad for these cats. More about this au will be revealed as I make more for it and just write about it in general---feel free to send asks about it! I intend to have everything about the au posted at some point. I actually have stuff done behind the scenes, I just don't feel like formatting it for tumblr atm I am lazy.

Time to do the thing I see a lot of people doing that I suppose I'll join in the bandwagon on; feel free to reblog if interested I suppose! No pressure though ofc LMAO I don't truly care too much, I'd just like to share my silly warriors au with others

ALSO this eeems more canon divergent than it actually is. It isn't all that much if you can look past the very dead fireheart

#warrior cats #erin hunter warriors #warriors fanart #warriors designs #wc #wc art #wc designs #art #artwork #digital artwork #digital drawing #drawing #Dee's spleen's #warriors au #au

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pages-and-1nk · 3 hours ago

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I followed you for the first bit in the sense of don’t like don’t interact/read.

My cup of tea is here, and yours is over there. I like to add sugar and cream, maybe you prefer to take it without, that should not matter to me because I’m not drinking from your cup- I’m drinking from mine.

However, on the topic of “taking back JKR’s work” I do want to point a few things out (civilly of course!)

I agree that we can’t take the characters back, it doesn’t work like that and as long as you buy/interact/continue to profit JKR in the name of the marauders you’re still giving her money no matter how you put it or phrase it. It’s why I discourage marauders fans from buying her merchandise or funding her products because even though your intentions may be pure, the actions are not.

HOWEVER having a queer and diverse space for people to feel included and accepted is the goal of the marauders. It’s a way to create a more open and accepting (not always the case) environment for queer/trans/POC people because the pre written Harry Potter universe lacked so much of that inclusion and it’s a bit of a hard pill to swallow as a minority. Obviously, you don’t have to interact with the HCs you don’t like, but saying it does nothing for everyone is fundamentally incorrect.

Yes, these are JkR’s characters, and they will always be, but that doesn’t mean changing them and making them diverse is pointless. We can recognize they were created by a bad person and still try and make them do good. Good representation in ANY media (published or fandom) does good.

OBVIOUSLY you are allowed to have your own opinions on hcs and ships and you shouldn’t be shown hate for it. I agree 100000% and you aren’t automatically a bigot for not enjoying certain HCs, nor should you be called one for having a conflicting pov.

Anyways, I’m sorry for your toxic experience in the fandom I’ve had a few too so I understand where you’re coming from. <3

Okay but a bit of a rant here. People have their spaces in a fandom I can accept that, but people on both sides go into the spaces they shouldn't be. I did this before too, I know that, but I learned something called fandom fucking etiquette, for which I have seen an ungodly amount of people(especially in the jily tag) not follow.

At this point, I've felt more hate from this fandom then anything fuckin fun anymore because if you don't ship a popular ship and follow particular headcanons for a character, you can't interact with 90% of this fandom. I have been called homophobic three times because I don't like Jegulus, and it makes me feel like shit.

I'd bet you 100 bucks that someone would call me racist if I said I didn't like the Desi James hc, or fatphobic because I don't like the plus sized Lily hc, despite the fact that I am both Desi and fat. Hell I don't like most of the 'diversity' hcs. Am I gonna be bitchy about it? No, because those hcs aren't the end of the world. I still interact with content with hcs that I don't personally hc. But some people do act like it's the end of the world, and apparently that's my fault.

Now I've noticed this fandom has "Take the characters back from JKR" mentality, hence the diverse hcs, and I will ask you this, you know that's not gonna work, right? You can't take the characters from the person who wrote them. They still belong to her, it doesn't matter if you change everything about them, they still belong to her. She's a bitch and I hate everything she stands for(i am everything she stands against), but it's not doing anything, I have trans and queer friends who recognize it's not doing anything, because they are still her characters, and you can't take them away from her.

Now I mention this because people(people like me) who don't ship ships or hc which are diverse get hate for it, even if we don't support jkr. But we're the same. We are reaching the same destination, which is nowhere. I've said it before, if the fandom ever starts dying down I wouldn't be surprised if she becomes more of a bitch to bring it back.

I genuinely don't feel safe in this fandom anymore and I've seen plenty of people that don't either.

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reluctantbylerblog · 1 year ago

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I don't expect to get good feedback but I feel like I need to say this: not everything is about taylor swift. yes, her ex posted an article about gaza on his instagram story the day of her birthday. but to call that a targeted act of malice, done solely to make her look bad, in my opinion, is in very poor taste to the current situation in gaza. don't get me wrong, I love taylor, some days she's all that gets me through the day, but she is NOT the center of everyone's universe. joe alwyn called for a ceasefire LAST WEEK, along with many other celebrities, among which taylor was not one of them. I don't even keep up with what the guy is up to and even I knew he called for a ceasefire. I think it's likely, with this being her first birthday since the breakup and with her living her life much more publicly, he knew fans were going to be paying more attention to what he posted and rather than give fodder to that certain subsect of swifties that like to hate on every person that was once in her life (I'm looking at you, people who were making fun of karlie kloss for her seats at so-fi stadium) he decided instead to turn heads to the current genocide in gaza! let me repeat that: there is a genocide going on! not everyone is thinking about taylor swift rn bffr!

furthermore, if you think his speaking out makes her look bad, think about why that is. I don't think celebrities have an obligation to "speak out" just because they are celebrities, but there is no denying taylor speaking out in support of palestine could literally be a key factor in turning public opinion in palestine's favor.

using the actual human suffering of the palestinian people as a way to make things about cheap celebrity gossip and "throwing shade" just to make your favorite celebrity look good is fucking tacky and it makes me ashamed to be in this fandom. if you're going to be doing that, the least you can do is click a button every once in a while too

#taylor swift #joe alwyn #leave the guy alone jfc #or read the fucking article he linked maybe #instead of finding a way to make it about taylor #he never spoke about her when they were dating #what makes you think he would start now #honestly the way some swifties are behaving right now makes me remember why i used to hide my love for her #because you give a bad name to the fandom #not even gonna tag this with p*lestine because I'm embarrassed that swifties are taking attention away from that with this bs

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hermitcraftx · 3 months ago

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some of you people cant get mad at me for not using duo names because some of your duo names are stupid (ESPECIALLY the ones involving gem. shiny duo ???? jade duo??? really?!?????? really ?????????) and arent widely used enough to warrant me using them. ill use jade duo when i'm dead

#it took me no lie 5 months to figure out who the fuck j*de duo were #because thats. thats how LITTLE it has to do with their characters #and i hate sh*ny d*o because it seems. misogynistic. so many better things coul dhav ebeen chosen and you chose shinyduo bc theyre #both women and have gemstone names and thats it. ok. alright. also it doesnt really give any insight into who they are either to outsiders #like b4 i was In The Know i deadass thought sh*ny d*o was a fucking foolish duo name sooooo #:sob:#guys pelase just pick better ones #ALSO THE AMNT OF PEOPLE . THERES THREE TW*NS DUOS. THREE NE*OPOLITAN TRIOS. TWO G*LDEN DUOS.... BE SO FR #LIKE YOU RUN OUT OF NAMES. EITHER JUST SAY THEIR NAMES OR AT LEAST COMBINE THEM TOGETHER TO BE IDENTIFIABLE?#FUCKS SAKEEEEEEEEE I MISS THE HERMITCRAFT FANDOM B4 THE DUO NAMES BECAME WIDESPREAD #BACK IN MY DAY WE SAID GR*MBO TO MEAN /P AND /R AND WE LIKED IT!!!! FUCK YOU !!!!#jamies bad posts #discourse

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killerandhealerqueen · 5 days ago

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I just received this reblog on my latest chapter update and um...who the fuck do you think you are?

Leave the demands of praise elsewhere?! I worked fucking hard on this fic, you think I don't deserve a little praise? And the fact that you say that you think that kudos and comments need to be earned instead of expected is fucking ridiculous because uh, no, they are kind of expected because that's what you do when you write fanfic. If you write something, and someone likes it, they are kind of expected to leave a kudos and a comment. They don't have to, but it's kind of expected. That's just kind of how writing/posting fanfics works. And while yes, nothing should be expected, kudos and comments shouldn't have to be earned either. That's just fucking ridiculous.

Also, you cannot say support writers and then say shit like this. It's contradictory and you sound like a fucking idiot because supporting other writers means LEAVING COMMENTS AND KUDOS.

Furthermore, this is fucking tumblr, the demanding of praise website. Artist don't post their shit just expecting people to look at it, they're expecting people to respond, to comment, to let them know what they think about it. Yes artists/writers post for themselves but they also post for others and the least you can do is fucking praise them for it! Praise the hard work that went into the fan art, the gifset, the poem, the fan fic, the amv, WHATEVER. It is common knowledge and common fucking courtesy to leave a kudos, like, comment, or reblog on a post that you like. If you don't like it, keep scrolling and don't say shit.

BUT DO NOT EVER TELL A WRITER/ARTIST NOT TO EXPECT/DEMAND PRAISE BECAUSE GUESS WHAT FUCKER, THAT'S HOW YOU'RE NEVER GETTING SHIT AGAIN

#sass rants #oooooo i am heated this morning #bad way to start my morning but you do not post this kind of shit on someone's fic #you just fucking don't #this user is fucking lucky i didn't include their username in the screenshot because boy fucking howdy i was about to but i'm not that mean #but the fact that someone would say this under a post like this...#it's fucking bonkers #and people wonder why artists/writers aren't creating anymore #it's because of fucking assholes like this one #hey H50 fandom you gonna claim this fan?#i hope not #they’re giving you a bad name

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adamnablelittledevil · 2 months ago

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If you want to talk about these characters and actors, you need to acknowledge intersecctionality. Yes, they might go through similar situations since many of them are minorities, but there are specific things that only a woman, black, dark-skinned, Muslim, person with an Arabic or overall ethnic name will face. You need to recognize ALL of these particularities and not only the ones that are convenient to you.

#interview with the vampire #also the whole award situation suddenly became an assad vs. jacob thing???#yes let's put two talented poc that got snubbed and are mistreated in the fandom against each other #meanwhile the actual problem which is WHITE PRIVILEGE AND WHITE SUPREMACY stays ignored #some people are making up this ridiculous narrative #that everything was perfect on season 1 with book and sam fans and it's assad fans that are big bad bullies and brought racism into here #I don't even need to say how ridiculous this is??? like I have a black Arab Muslim mutual that is indirectly offended by all this #and they ignore delainey because why acknowledge a supporting and/or dark-skinned black actress when you can be antiblack and islamophobic #and I bet money if louis was played by a white person and jacob was idk daniel many wouldn't bother to acknowledge any actor of color at al #anyway they're all talented and deserve award noms wins or to at least have their fucking names mentioned #specially on articles that show their photos because if you're going to exploit their fucking image you better say their name?????#i can give you dozens of examples of muslim brown and/or black people being snubbed sabotaged underpayed bullied working in bad conditions #and being dropped by studios and labels and having their roles and songs deleted only because of their race culture and values #fuck this shit really #jacon anderson #delainey hayles #assad zaman

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she-toadmask · 2 days ago

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Don't bring your negative opinions onto a post not looking for them

Was I thinking the same thing (but enjoying the post anyway)? Yes. I made the conscious decision to say nothing because that's how you be polite to people

The tags devolve into bitching about specific fanfiction petty dislikes

UPDATE I WENT OFF ABOUT TRANSFORMERS CONTINUITY CONVENTIONS AND REACHED 30 TAGS SO I GUESS IT ENDS WITH "I didn't count it initially but Beast Wars is also not an example"

#untagged #vent #delete later #yes t f a doesnt have the mythical prime stuff common in other continuities and people adding it is a bit annoying #my personal fandom beef is when people add soup and give t f a megs any kind of sympathetic backstory like. bestie no.#idr how the ascenticon name factors in but there was another guy who led the decepticons. forgot his name and cba to research rn.#but megatron fucking killed him and took over the decepticons and wants to be evil warlord man (even if transform and rise up goes hard)#yes the autobots are garbage but the cons are still also evil #my other extremely petty gripe is when fics dont know that the reason blitzy is a triple changer and Like That is because of experiments #which were run by 'nia so if you change anything around archa 7 regarding who doesnt leave. blitzy's backstory changes #like there are a couple fics that are older that idc because they were probably from before the almanac said that and also they're one-shots #but anything modern. my petty gripe.#so yeah shoutout to the optimus archa 7 fic i found that makes the deliberate effort to make a new triple change backstory #also it manages to make con!tfa!ratchet actually somewhat believable which i didnt think was possible so im impressed #because in my head it was like 'bee gets framed and bulk follows him or smth + optimus is spider + prowl is more bitter about draft'#whereas ratchet lived through the entire fucking war and would have lost many people to it and the cons do war crimes too #case in point the triple changer program. also using cosmic rust as a weapon. whoever that was. rip tfa rodimus o7 #tangentially related pet peeve that was recently revived: blanket statement about optimus and megatron backstory #i dont care if you started with prime. you are doing a mini video essay. 'they used to be friends' is not a multiversal constant.#it is not The Way Things Have Always Been. it started around there but like #tbf i dont know what the fuck is going on with cyberverse aside from season 4 and starscream obtains cosmic power multiple times #or idw2. idk whats going on there except starscream had a mom and sentinel gets the 'you werent as bad as you could have been' star or w/e #being fair and counting earthspark and tfone but excluding those two and skybound (for lack of evidence but its likely more classic g1)#and compressing non-idw g1 into one entity because i also dont know whats going on in the marvel and dreamwave comics #actually no we cant count earthspark we dont actually know shit about their prewar relationship. earthspark also removed from count.#for always-enemies we have g1+tfa+unicrontrilogy for once-friends we have tfp+idw+tfone #i think bayverse would count as once-friends lore-wise but not presentation-wise so its excluded #shit i forgot machinima and netflix existed. i dont know those either.#whatever ive been generous to the once-friends thing. dont remember the translation mess but by english rid01 is enemies #i excluded beast wars but that also counts as *an* optimus and *a* megatron who are always enemies

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mishy-mashy · 2 months ago

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*looks up "unordinary" for fics here*

*sees nothing*

*opens up existing drafts to drop some stray lines here*

A mainly New Bostin-centric fic and OC. Zirian is a main character. Including,

Arlo and Levani are neighbors. Levani is a karen

She spared herself the hassle and had the new fridge delivered to Arlo's door, where his across-the-road neighbor apparently tried taking it as her own, dragging it like some gremlin.

"LEVANI STOP BEING A BITCH!"

"WHAT DID YOU CALL ME, BOY!?"

Zirian embodying the trope of [kind to exactly one person]

"Hold on a second," Zirian muttered, fishing out his ringing phone. One look at the contact name and he accepted, bringing the phone to his ear. "Hi, Kels," he murmured in the softest voice ever.

His Turf mates boggled at him. Because what the fuck?

Whoever was speaking on the other side was definitely a female voice. Something about wrangling sheep, subways, and not being able to come to town today.

"Okay. Okay," he whispered to whoever was on the other side of the line. "I'll see you tomorrow then."

"'kay. Can you hang up? My hands are wet."

Oh, they recognized that voice. They definitely knew who this was. Country bumpkin, she was.

"Okay. Bye."

He removed the phone from his ear and hung up. Immediately stuffing the phone in his pocket, his glare returned full-force as he rounded on them.

"Now listen here, you little shits-"

Zirian losing to low-tiers when it comes to farmwork. This life is not for him

"Hup!"

CLUCK!

"Up and at 'em, King! We got work to do!"

He let out a loud groan of protest, to the loud, indignant clucking of the chicken that just got thrown out the window after running over his face. Apparently, that chicken getting in the house was a common occurrence.

When he raised his head to look out the window, and saw only pitch blackness, he let a louder complaint. This wasn't ass o'clock in the morning. He didn't even think it was morning.

He could stand her level of craziness. But the amount of labor her lifestyle required was bound to drive him to retirement at the early, early age of 18.

John rising up as a violent King

"Where the fuck is she?! I'm going to kill her and string her intestines as this school’s Christmas lights!"

If someone told her an angsty sophomore would be trying to gut her today, she'd have just called the police and stayed home to sleep in the sheep pen.

Alas, she was not warned. The fact a teacher got thrown out a window was only part of the result of catching John's attention for "training".

Zirian can cook. OC cannot.

".. I killed someone with my cooking," she finally said, at how Zirian froze on his feet after putting the spoon in his mouth.

"..... What did you put in this?" It took a strangely long amount of time for Zirian to compose himself, gulp down the food, and compose himself again.

(It happened to not only include him trying to be polite over retching into the sink, but becoming Catholic for exactly 10 seconds to send a prayer of "What the fuck" to God, but she'd breeze past that)

"??? I followed the box. It said one of the main ingredients was salt." She pointed at the ingredients used to make the macaroni and cheese powder. "And I thought any white powder would do, so I used baking soda."

"And you used how much?"

"Just a cup."

"And the soy sauce..?"

Ah, he saw her use that too? She didn't know he was watching her cook.

"Well, I think of cheese as an umami flavor, and soy sauce is pretty similar, so-"

"You followed the list of ingredients instead of the cooking instructions?"

She looked at the box. "There are cooking instructions?"

"Oh my god-"

#my boy zirian gets no attention except for the one person who makes memes and stuff for him here #i want decent fics that arent afraid of bending the plot and are written well #but unordinary fandom still seems like a bad egg and super strong ocs being kicked around by midtiers #not bc theyre like john but just because gary sue or something #where ur strong and everyone likes u but oh no! Some Guy™ just beat you up! conveniently alongside the og protagonist!#but ur super strong how could this happen when nothing is hindering you at all!#idk thats my experience with ppls stuff #not even some strong guy just a thug thats like “give me your wallet!” and you cough blood and wipe your cheek dramatically from #a guy thats just pulling on ur stuff from u #(person who does zirian memes u are my hero)#im not the best writer but. i saw ppl say unordinary takes place in japan? with names like john remi and arlo? i dont really think so unles #i missed that somewhere #edit: anyway this is gonna get out of my drafts now #uno #unordinary #zirian #oc #fic #fanfiction #fanfic #webtoon #new bostin

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because-its-eurovision · 1 year ago

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I fully get the anxiety of feeling like you don’t deserve to go to a show. It comes with the whole competetive fandom stuff.

Honestly, as someone who has performed on a lot of stages with varying kinds of crowds, the most important thing isn’t if you’re the biggest fan or if you know the lyrics or some choreography or bring gifts. The thing that is the most valuable is that you go to the show to have a good time. That’s all the artists are generally looking for. That people enjoy their music, enjoy the show, are excited to be there.

Some people may be disappointed that they don’t get a ticket, sure. But it’s not you taking that ticket away from them. Not everyone can have everything. Sometime people don’t get concert tickets. That is not your fault for buying. It is a thing that happens when everyone has the right to buy concert tickets instead of them being raffeled off or gifted. If the show was just for the biggest fans, tickets would be give out as competition prices, not to the person who buys them.

And there is no right way to enjoy the show. Some superfans never learn lyrics because they don’t particularly care. Some people buy tickets to go see random artists just for the experience. Some people just love to give gifts and find that to be the best way of interacting. Your way of doing it is just as valid as all that. You don’t have to earn any right to be there, that is what the tickets are for.

And honestly, you’d be surprised by the number of people who have never even heard of an artist or band who just show up for the show because they had a day off and it could be fun. It’s not about deserving to be there. It’s about wanting to go and getting the chance to actually do that.

I don’t know if this little pep talk eases your mind at all, but I hope it does. Learning to let go of the competetive mindset and attitude when it comes to regular life stuff is a chore and a half. I just want you to know that I would love for you to go to the show.

Thank you for reaching out. I really appreciate it ❤

#ik it's mostly in my head #I've always felt like I'm never good enough since early childhood #I think band fandoms have partly always been like this #about going to every show and learning all the lyrics and 'you are wearing their merch so name all the albums' or you are a poser #ig and twitter and maybe tiktok as well have just made it worse because now I can see it all the time #like there were people queuing for Tavastia at 6 am today already #and there are people who travel across the continent for the shows #and I do not have those kinds of possibilities because I can't afford it and I have a day job #which makes be both feel like a bad person because I can't sacrifice everything to be a fan #but also makes me reconsider if I'm too old to be a fan and I'm just embarassing myself by going to any shows at all ever #because clearly band fandoms are only meant for teens and people in their early twenties who can skip school and camp outside the venue #also i made the mistake of going to twitter and saw a thread about 'so what gifts have you guys made for the boys this time?'#and I was so shook because I had no idea that you're supposed to make gifts to give for the artists at EVERY show #and I can't make anything #I have no skills or money #I can't paint or sew or make crafts #so is it like I'm a lesser person because I only paid for the ticket #you see where I'm coming from?#asks

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findafight · 2 years ago

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“Shipping is not about it going canon, it's about wanting to explore a dynamic. Sometimes that's thinking something should be canon but other times it's having fun smooshing dolls together in different scenarios.”

Maybe in general, but that’s not the way the Byler fandom sees it. We’re fighting for endgame status, not just to have “fun with character dynamics.” So if you’re gonna enter the Byler tag, it’s important to respect how Bylers operate. You can’t enter a random and demand people conform to how you prefer shipping to be.

Shipping Byler IS about it going canon.

that. is fundamentally not how tags work. or how fandom works. entering a ship tag the only obligation you have is to not bash the ship or be an asshole to others. Meta for fandom is usually encouraged? Just because I doubt the show's ability to end/start romo relationships (as it has struggled in the past) doesn't mean I am shipping something incorrectly.

"You can't enter a random and demand people conform to how you prefer shipping to be" 1) I'm not, I'm just saying it's more fun to not worry about a ship going canon. Other people are very welcome to dictate their shipping if they think it'll be canon and nothing else, but that doesn't seem fun to me. If the ship goes canon I hope it's done well and doesn't feel stilted because the show has a hard time with beginning/ending romantic relationships. If they pull it off for this one, I'll be very happy. Surprised, but happy. 2) you must be baiting because that is exactly what you're doing? telling me to ship something how you think it should be? acting as though you speak for the whole fandom? you're just trying to piss people off.

Shipping it for you is about it being canon. that's not what shipping it is about for me. we are allowed to have different opinions.

#findaanswers #Anonymous #aaaaand lets call a spade a spade:#fandom wank #only tagging for my own sorting but #i will tag the show i guees #maybe bury it the tags #this is ridiculous.#listen i keep answering these because yall. this is bonkers #honestly to the normal shippers out there sorry these folks are giving you a bad name by generalizing you together with them #stranger things #blr #anonasaurus

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miyakuli · 11 months ago

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hello! by any chance do you happen to have a list of confirmed art reposters that we can block/avoid?

Hello anon <3 sorry, I never made one because...let's be honest, the list would be just too long and I'd have to update it all the time since I would have to do it for every fandoms I know x') it would be too much time consuming for me ;;

But I have a "reposters" tag on my blog though that gathers many warnings that I've made about some blogs or that I received through asks by other people. Maybe it can help already a bit to block some?

#I definitely have “big” blogs in mind for some fandoms though so if you need names for some let me know - maybe I'll have some #also I only give names if it comes from an user who ignore messages purposely / block people when being called out #because some people just don't know that reposting is bad so sometimes sending a message is enough to stop it #anyway #I hope the tag will help you a bit #anon #ask #personal

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mathmusicreading · 10 months ago

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Xiè Lián: My surname is Xiè, my first name is Lián. Huā Chéng: You can call me your third husband. Xiè Lián: What happened to my first two husbands?!

I learned Huā Chéng was having Xiè Lián call him "husband" from Ty the Canasian on Kictor's YouTube, I found this when I was trying to corroborate the linguistics, and I indulged and bought the official Seven Seas Entertainment (translator and editor are on Tumblr!) English translations of the books so here's further confirmation from Volume 1:

ETA:

I made this post private because I was unhappy with it (misspelling/misformatting Wúmíng, knowing I wouldn't have good reach for larger and less biased sample size even if I could have tagged better for the fandoms and characters if Tumblr organized by more than the first five tags), but I'm making it public again since it finished and so did the similar poll that fun-mxtx-polls was kind enough to make for me.

Not to bias towards the first option, just to explain it, the first option and why I wanted this poll come from the naming pattern trivia for MXTX's love interests/male leads/gongs, which I think you can best read on Huā Chéng's page on the Heaven Official's Blessing/Tiān Guān Cì Fú wikia. I'm just using that as my citation given:

I'm not sure if MXTX has discussed this meta in-joke somewhere and if so, where.

The SSE Glossary: Terminology note (all volumes of all three MXTX novels) only explains the second and third gongs, and implies MXTX is doing this purposefully. Lán Wàngjī's wikia page explains only the three published gongs, and implies this started from fandom phenomena creating a proto-stage pattern (if you subscribe to "one is chance, two is coincidence, three is a pattern"). Huā Chéng's page linked above is the odd man out and so probably incorrect about Lán-èr-gē vs. Lán-èr-gēge, but it goes above and beyond by explaining the fourth gong, and it uses the most neutral language regarding this trivia.

I think citation is unnecessary for "gē" (哥 | 哥) meaning "big brother" and in certain contexts having the connotation or meaning of "eldest brother" (admittedly my unverified inference), "èr" (二 | 二) meaning "two", and "sān" (三 | 三) meaning "three".

I actually like so much because I like to think if it could use more wordplay and less literalism. Please forgive me for being a poor reader not remembering exactly, not buying the TGCF raws yet, not being able to buy the SVSSS and MDZS raws, and only being able to find old fan translations/interpretations of MXTX's fourth novel preview, but let me explain:

I believe Luò Bīnghé isn't being called "Luò Bīnghé-gē" (or rather "Bīng-gē" since I think? it's more usual to use the suffix with the single/first character of a person's given name, not with their full name, especially when the full name is three (or more? some of my reading has mentioned two-character last names but I didn't find if culture was strict about then making the given name be only one character) characters) for the usual reasons to address someone with "gē", but actually the PIDW!Luò Bīnghé is being called Luò Bīnggē (or "Bīng-gē") because he's more aggressive than canon/SVSSS!Luò Bīnggē who when being differentiated gets called Luò Bīngmèi (or "Bīng-mèi"), and I love that "very fitting reasoning for the naming, not strictly literal and not so bound to literal".

Then with Lán Wàngjī, I see the opportunity that his nickname could have used the natural naming of "erhua is used as a diminutive suffix", and the "er" would have been homophonous with "èr" (二 | 二) for "two" for him being the second gong, and homophonous to the potential "proper address for him as the second Lán son/brother".

In the most literal sense, you'll notice that the gongs so far have had their nicknames be using "(big) brother" and Huā Chéng's uses láng (郎 | 郎) "son" (his stated meaning, although it can also mean "man" and "husband" and the latter is how we can interpret he wanted it to be when coming from Xiè Lián). There's nothing wrong with that and the numbers are perfectly probable, and would still be so as they grow, but also they could feel more like "contrived" coincidence, which is part of my wanting to get away from literalism a little bit, not just my loving clever wordplay. With Huā Chéng, I don't have a homophone I can use for punning like with Lán Wàngjī, or really the "cultural language use where literal suffixes/honorifics get used figuratively for XYZ purposes", but I can make it fit with character interpretation. To me, Sān Láng doesn't have to be "Third Son" because "he has two older brothers" and in fact we aren't sure that he was telling the truth about that—instead, I think Huā Chéng could be being clever with not just getting Xiè Lián to call him (Third/surname "Three") Husband but in saying his name is "Third Man" because this is the third alias he gives Xiè Lián. (Some additional feels this gives me: It's like he's saying he's the same person Xiè Lián met before, that they shared all of that experience and it mattered, that he's the final form of that person wanting to be with Xiè Lián, that he's like a fairy-tale character with many names and forms and a true name and form and all along there was a trick or thread to follow in knowing and identifying him.) It just works out so perfectly because of the third way he introduces himself to Xiè Lián matching him being the third gong, and also the fairy-tale significant number of "three".

Finally, with the fourth gong, I've looked at Suika's TGCF Afterword translation, a NovelUpdates MDZS spoilers forum post by K.san crossposted to the Grim Reapers Have No Days Off spoilers forum by alexfilia, a reply to this post in r/tianguancifu by u/chenmochou, and also this post in r/tianguancifu by u/Loud_Daikon6167 which cites a TikTok I can't see either because of TikTok's thing about opening to a random page/the homepage or I assume the TikTok being removed or locked. Given the first NovelUpdates post maybe having more of a direct translation compared to the first Reddit post, it's still not definitive to me whether this is "actually more of a fandom thing, with MXTX acknowledging and participating in it enough to help make it possible" or it's "MXTX doing this on purpose with her name choices and character traits, whether she meant to have the pattern from the start or later, and yes could have been influenced by fandom" because I think "Other: 四少" is probably about the male lead(s) compared to it following "Protagonist: the uke's name is not determined yet" so it doesn't seem like the fandom came up with a nickname out of whole cloth. "Four young masters" is perfectly probable and could be equally reasonable, and "four ikemen" could even follow in reasonability; in fact it could be more likely and realistic since this is a modern setting, which would have different use of "young master" to me, and because we believe the gong to be the regular human and the shou to be the grim reaper. But for the wordplay, I would have liked it if the gong were the grim reaper and the "four theme naming" came from the famous "sì" (四 | 四) meaning "four" is homophonous with "sǐ" (死 | 死) meaning "die/death" and the latter being used in the Chinese for "grim reaper"/"death god".

#Tian Guan Ci Fu #TGCF #Heaven Official's Blessing #Mo Xiang Tong Xiu #MXTX #I'm sure this joke has already been made since I'm late to fandom as always #but congrats MXTX this is so perfect and I have to make this joke even if it's me jumping on a bandwagon and beating a dead horse #Thank you Netflix subtitles for having the perfect dialogue to make this joke work as compared to the Seven Seas Entertainment publication #and my research says this makes Xiè Lián’s dialogue match how a Chinese person would introduce themself so that's awesome!#Thank you to fandom.com for having more character name information than Wikipedia. I'm trusting the characters are right #and trusting Google Translate which matched the diacritics for the tones #I learned barely any Chinese from my parents so I'm not touching whether I think 儿 should be the full character or what I think of as #smaller writing for phonetic diminutive suffix and I'm not touching that Wikipedia gives it the rising tone diacritic so it's ér #And if that's a thing for which my parents were like “that's something interesting and complicated we're not going to explain at this level #then spacing and punctuation were also not really formalized for hanyu pinyin for me so I'm also not touching whether that dash #should be a space (I don't actually think this one) or no space or an apostrophe #To be clear the official translation also uses the hyphen but I can't trust the neutral vowel because the novels only use diacritics for th #and that's only for Book 1 they don't even do that for Book 2 where I confirmed -er #Book 3 with Hua Cheng as an unnamed soldier actually gives tonal marks for the whole Pronunciation Guide though!#main characters in the Pronunciation Guide and not in the rest of the book or even the appendices #Argh I forgot to remove the space for Wúmíng according to what I figured the spacing convention for names was and that Book 6 supports #What I WILL touch is PLEASE think of the vowel sound in gege as being on the eugh end of the spectrum as opposed to #uh or ugh and their different pronunciations #OR EVEN BETTER please just pronounce the phoneme gh #Forget the silent h after g given to you by Flemish typesetters working English printing presses #If I ask you to pronounce gh or to pronounce both letters in gh #what you think of for that is approximately how you should say ge for older brother/male friend #Yes I do feel bad for using fandom.com wikias instead of trying to find wikis #But I'm sorry I wasn't going to hunt for what the wiki URLs might be given the given translation and fandom #and what I could immediately see from Wikipedia and TVTropes

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ayyy-pee · 7 months ago

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ℍ𝕚𝕕𝕕𝕖𝕟 𝔸𝕗𝕗𝕒𝕚𝕣𝕤

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Pairing: Sanemi Shinazugawa x Female Reader

Summary: But you can see - in those deep violet eyes of his - three little words swimming behind them that he's been itching to say to you for quite some time now. You want to say them too, have for as long as you can remember.

But you're both Hashira. It's already enough that you both keep towing this dangerous line, finding yourselves in this exact predicament more often than not.

Sanemi is just so down bad for reader.

Story Warning: Smut, Alley Sex, P in V sex, Profanity bc c'mon...it's me, Vaginal Sex, Jealousy, Jealous Behavior, Fingering, Unprotected Sex, Creampie, Sanemi being bad at feelings, Secret Flings, Secretly in Love, Sneaking Around, Some canon Giyuu hate from Sanemi, Reader is a Hashira too!

Art by: krit961 (Twitter)

A/N: This is my first time writing for this fandom ever, but the Sanemi brainrot has been so INSANELY strong I just had to write SOMETHING up. It's nothing crazy and I'm rusty because it's been awhile for me but ugh. THIS ONE IS FOR YOU SANEMI!!!! Also shoutout to @lemonlover1110 for helping me with the title!

“We should head back…” You sigh, breaths coming rapidly. “Before…” A quiet gasp interrupts your words when you feel the sting of teeth sinking into your neck. “Before the others notice…”

”Fuck the others,” a gravelly voice growls into the juncture of your neck. Large hands grasp your thighs hard, holding them wide open as a hard form sits between them. “Don’t give a fuck if they notice, either. Maybe Tomioka will stop staring like a lovesick puppy if he figures it out.”

He buries his face further into your neck, grumbling against your skin. Something along the lines of “I hate that guy” and “I should gouge his eyes out”.

Your fingers slip into the snowy white tresses at the nape of his neck, gripping hard and pulling so that you can see his face. Pretty, long lashes cover hooded purple eyes that soften the moment they catch sight of you. The softness is such a contrast to the deep, pitted scars scattered along his face. But he’s beautiful all the same.

“Sanemi…”

At the sound of his name on your lips, he rolls his eyes. “If you’re gonna defend him–”

“Sanemi –”

“I don’t wanna hear it.”

Your lips set into a deep frown, and Sanemi matches your expression, stubborn as ever. “What is your issue with Giyuu anyway?”

Sanemi scoffs, “Giyuuuuuu,” he mocks with a nasally tone. “Stop talking about him.”

“You brought him up!”

His mouth finds yours, rough and hungry, all consuming. It’s all teeth and tongue, nipping at your lips because he knows they’ll still be just swollen enough by the time you both get back. He’s marking his territory in his own way, as much as he can. Possessive and jealous, even when he knows he has no reason to be, no right to be. But he can’t help it.

You don’t belong to him, you don’t belong to anyone. Because you know it wouldn’t be smart to commit to any one person. Not in this line of work.

Sanemi has you pressed against the bamboo fencing in the darkest part of an alleyway, just outside of the Ubuyashiki Mansion with your legs wrapped tightly around his waist. It’s your usual meeting spot when you’ve been separated for some time, both of you too impatient to wait until the early morning hours when the Hashira meeting has finally ended to see each other.

“Fuck me,” Sanemi groans against your lips. He places an arm beneath your ass, holding you up as his other hand hikes your uniform skirt up to your waist. “Swear this gets shorter every time I see you.”

A giggle slips past your lips, because it absolutely gets shorter every time he sees you. You do it on purpose because you know it drives Sanemi up the wall to see little peeks of your ass and not be able to do anything about it. Makes him even crazier that he knows others can see it, too, and he can’t do anything but shoot death glares at anyone who dares to let their gazes roam.

But you can’t let Sanemi know that. So you pout, laying your palms against his exposed chest and tracing his scars with your fingertips. You watch as his eyes flutter, sensitive to the touch. “You don’t like it? I can always request a change in uniform…”

Sanemi groans, leaning forward and kissing you hard. “Don’t you fuckin’ dare.” He presses his groin into your, evidence of his arousal against your soaking core. “You look so good in it.” His hand slinks between your bodies, thumb going straight to your clit, where he presses down, a shit eating grin spreading across his face when your back arches off the wall and you moan. “Look even better in it when you’re making that face.”

Your nails dig into his scars and Sanemi’s reaction is automatic, hips rocking forward roughly and now you’re both whining into each other’s mouths. You’re sure if anyone came across the two of you, you’d appear as this horny couple who couldn’t bother to wait until they got home to dry hump each other. And outside of the couple part, they’d be correct. Sanemi ruts against you, his erection running deliciously along your clothed cunt. Your lips slot together, tongues deep in each other’s mouths as Sanemi grunts into yours, and you keen into his.

There’s not much time to waste, you’re meant to be at the mansion soon. It would be suspicious if one Hashira, let alone two were missing when the Master arrived and if asked, the crows would spill your secrets in a heartbeat. You need to hurry. And Sanemi feels the pressure too. Even though he loves to annoy you pretending he doesn’t care about being late or cluing in the others on what’s going on, he would never disrespect the Master.

Pausing his movements and leaning back to peer down at you, Sanemi sighs. He’s so painfully hard, his length throbbing within the confines of his uniform as he drinks in the sight of your kiss swollen lips, just the way he wanted them. And your face flushed, pupils blown wide as all hell with arousal. He’s sure he looks much the same, knowing you’re just as possessive as he is, though you hardly show it. It’s simply easier to hide your little territorial marks, the scratches you leave on him when they blend in so well among the rest of his scars.

Your fingers ghost along his chest, finding his nipples and you pinch the hardening buds, smirking when you see the way Sanemi’s eyes almost roll back. He can’t take another fucking second of this teasing. Not after he hasn’t seen you in who knows how long. He wants you badly that even your voice is enough to make him ruin his pants right now. It’s the semi-annual Hashira meeting tonight and he’s not willing to wait until Himejima is done yapping to have you.

Sanemi tugs at his uniform, getting his pants down just barely enough to pull his cock out. The tip is angry, red, just as desperate to be inside you as Sanemi. It glistens with his desire for you and you only.

“Gonna fuck you now, okay?” He tells you, hooking a finger into your undergarments and pulling them to the side. He runs his digits through your folds, hissing when he feels how drenched you are. It helps when he slips two fingers into you, mouth falling open when you throw your head back with a cry, your walls clamping around him. This Sanemi’s favorite part. Watching the way your brows knit together, how your pretty teeth dig into your plush bottom lip to bite back your moans, how your pussy makes the most lewd noises as he pumps his fingers into you.

You are glorious.

Always have been. It’s why he can never get enough of you. You’re insanely strong, clearly. You’re a Hashira, standing alongside him and some of the strongest in the corps. But you’re also blessed with a beauty that rivals every woman Sanemi has ever laid eyes on. He’s drawn to you in ways he cannot explain, ways he doesn’t need an explanation for. It’s why he hates catching the little glances from a certain other Hashira. Not that anyone knows what you two have going on, but all Sanemi knows is that he –

“Sanemi…” you whimper, eyes gazing softly at him. “Please. I need you.”

And he doesn’t need to hear more. His lips crash against yours as he swiftly pulls his fingers from you, gripping his length tightly and pumping himself. “How bad do you need me?” He asks. Because he needs you so fucking bad right now he can’t think straight. His mind is foggy, his body burns with his lust for you.

“So, so bad, Sanemi,” you loop your arms around his neck, kissing him just as eagerly as he kisses you. “I need you more than anything.”

Sanemi groans, pressing the tip of his cock to your entrance. But his eyes never leave your face, even as the tip breaches your walls and makes him want to shut his eyes and focus on not cumming embarrassingly fast. He wants to see you, watch the way you lose yourself when he splits you open. The thought of it has him pulsing painfully in his hand. He rolls his hips forward, slowly, gritting his teeth when your wet warmth envelops him. “Still so goddamn tight for me,” he grunts. “Your greedy cunt is sucking me right in, fuck.”

Your nails dig into the fabric of Sanemi’s shirt, hanging on for dear life as Sanemi pushes deeper and deeper into you. As many times as you’ve been in this position with Sanemi, it always feels like the first time. He’s so long and thick, you have to adjust every time he slips into you.

“Oh my god,” you whine, and Sanemi pauses.

“You okay?”

“Yes…just…fuck me, please, Sanemi…”

He grips your thighs, pushing you back against the bamboo fencing to hold you in place. And then he thrusts forward, bottoming out in one swift motion and you both cry out in unison, the overwhelming pleasure making you both shudder.

“Fucking hell,” Sanemi sighs. He places his hands beneath your ass, keeping you still while he rears his hips back, only to slam back into you over and over. He pounds into your pussy at a relentless pace. Half because you’re on one hell of a time crunch, and half because he can’t help it. He feels animalistic when it comes to you, fucking into you mindlessly because it just feels so goddamn incredible. Every thrust feels better than the last, your warm walls clenching around him with each snap of his hips.

“I can’t go that long without you again…” Sanemi croaks, catching himself because he feels he’s getting too sentimental. “...without your pretty little pussy.”

“God, just say you missed me, you asshole.” You tell him, moving your own hips to meet his strokes. Though your words come out as more of this pathetic whimper than an actual demand and it makes Sanemi’s hips stutter. Just briefly. His hands on your ass lift you up before pulling you to sink back down on him.

Sanemi chuckles, leaning back just enough so that he can look between your bodies, watch the sticky strings of your slick connecting you, watch how his dick disappears. “Did you miss me?”

“Yes!” You cry when Sanemi hits a particularly tender spot. “Shit, I missed you so much, Sanemi.”

His brows rise, a little surprised by the confession, and a loud one at that. “Oh?” He kisses you hard, keeping his pace. Your confession turns him on more than he’s willing to admit. He missed you, too, though it’s harder for him to say so. Instead he fucks all of his feelings into you.

How he misses you when you’re apart, because his thoughts are dangerously distracted wondering what you’re doing, who you’re with, if you’re alive.

How he wishes you’d be assigned missions together, so he could watch you tear a demon's head straight from their shoulders. Then find somewhere to stay the night so he can fuck you on every surface possible (He’s done this with you before. He wants to do it with you again).

How he wishes he could open his mouth and tell you how he truly feels.

But those feelings have always been foreign to him. Sanemi is lucky you understand his silence, that you accept his actions for what they are and let them speak for him. You accept everything he gives you happily. And as you tighten your legs around his waist, as you quietly let your pleasure be heard by him and him alone, as your walls clamp down around him with your release, convulsing and pulling him into you, Sanemi can only thank the Gods for every shitty circumstance that led him to you.

Does he deserve you? Probably not. Does he care? Absolutely not.

Because you chose him. This secret…whatever this is. Out of anyone in this world, you chose Sanemi.

And it’s enough to send him over the edge with you, gasping desperately for air as he tries to find your lips again. He closes his eyes, pushing himself as deep as he can as his release floods your walls. It’s so much, a build up over time and he knows his seed will be dripping out of your core before he’s even had a chance to pull out. It’s always this way. Because Sanemi doesn’t bother entertaining other women when he’s away. He only wants you. So the second he’s within the same vicinity as you, he has literally so much to give.

You never seem to mind.

Sanemi breaks the messy kiss, placing gentle, sweet pecks to your cheek before he leans back to stare down at you. That fucked out look on your face almost has him getting hard again. But you don’t have time for that, so he just watches you and you watch him. And he’s glad for the fact that you can’t see the way his mind is racing with only thoughts of you, thoughts of this feeling he’s buried so deep trying to claw its way up Sanemi’s throat.

But you can see - in those deep violet eyes of his - three little words swimming behind them that he's been itching to say to you for quite some time now. You want to say them too, have for as long as you can remember.

But you're both Hashira. It's already enough that you both keep towing this dangerous line, finding yourselves in this exact predicament more often than not.

It's a little more than ridiculous actually, the way neither of you can resist sneaking glances, hiding touches, making excuses to leave on missions together. You and Sanemi…you're drawn to each other, your strings of fate knotted tightly together. It’s become impossible to leave each other alone. You don't think you'd be able to resist what you're doing even if you met as two civilians on the street. Hell, you couldn't resist each other all those years ago when you were low ranked corps members.

Training was a confusing hell back then, every session filled to the brim with fury and a strange and thick tension neither of you could put your finger on until way down the line. It wasn't until one particular training session when Sanemi had you pinned to the ground, his strong hips pressing into yours, that you then understood what that tension was. The evidence was apparent in the way Sanemi's hard stare bore into yours, how the heat between your legs began to ignite when you felt Sanemi’s thick length pulse against you, how something akin to a whimper fell from his lips when his gaze snapped down quickly just in time to watch the hem of your uniform skirt slip further, enough for him to see the way your bodies seemed to just…fit.

Then his eyes were back on your face, your lips, now parted as harsh breaths escaped you. Your eyes, wide and wanting, peered up at him from beneath your lashes and Sanemi remembers this being the very moment he stopped denying what he had always known. You are breathtakingly beautiful. He also recalls this being the moment he knew he was done for.

So when your hands found themselves placed against his not yet scarred chest, balling the sweaty fabric of his shirt in your fists…when he leaned closer and curiously rolled his hips against your clothed core and heard you let out the most captivating sound he'd ever heard, a sound he's been obsessed with since he's heard it…when he pressed his lips lightly to yours and you whispered into his mouth “I've never done this before”.

Yeah, Sanemi knew then that he was fucked.

And though that night was not the night you'd given your virginity to Sanemi - that would happen years later - it was the night Sanemi tasted you for the first time. And he devoured you time and time again like a man starved. He would have you any way and any time that he could, if you allowed him.

That was only the beginning.

Not much has changed in the years that you have been keeping up this arrangement with Sanemi. It's the only thing that you both keep coming back to, the only thing that feels solid. Though you both know it's stupid to feel as if anything in this line of work is not at risk.

Every night that you lie awake, together or not, is a reminder. Every semi-annual meeting with the Hashira, mentally taking a headcount of everyone is a reminder. Every Hashira meeting without Rengoku, without Tengen is a reminder.

Death is always standing just outside your door.

You can't afford to delude yourselves into thinking you can freely love and care for each other. Not until this thousand year war is over. Not until you are free to roam beneath the stars together without the scent of blood, the cries of pain and loss tainting the night.

So, as you and Sanemi slip into the gates of the Ubuyashiki Mansion, your fingers brush together just briefly - a silent display of those words you dare not mutter aloud. You make your way to your respective places amongst the strongest of the Demon Slayer corps; you, next to Tomioka and Sanemi beside the Serpent Hashira. And while you quietly mingle with those around you before the Master appears, you miss the hushed conversation further down the line.

“You reek of her,” Obanai remarks. Resting around his shoulders, his snake whips his tongue out at Sanemi in almost an agreement.

“Shut up.”

“You're more tense than normal. Did you finally confess? Did she reject your advances?”

“I said shut up,” Sanemi growls. The chatter of everyone is already grinding on his nerves and your voice is not helping. He wants to look at you. See what - or who - has you giggling and speaking so sweetly that it's making him sick. It shouldn't matter. You can talk to whoever you want.

‘Except Tomioka,’ Sanemi thinks. But it's only because he's so clearly in love with you! He can't understand how you don't see it.

“Looks like Tomioka is making his move,” Obanai notes quietly, like he read Sanemi’s mind.

Sanemi can hear the teasing tone in his voice. The asshole is really getting a kick out of this. Even still, it's enough to have Sanemi’s gaze snapping over to you just in time to see Tomioka and you smiling sweetly at each other, nodding and whispering amongst yourselves.

It shouldn't make Sanemi as upset as it does, just seeing you enjoy yourself with him, seeing him enjoy himself with you. Your smiles, your laughs, your kindness. It should only be for Sanemi. But you're a kind person…too kind. So kind you'd allow a monster like himself to fall in love with you.

Tomioka is much kinder, more understanding, better for you than Sanemi could ever be.

And so, seeing you and him bond…Well, it fills Sanemi with a rage so hot he finds himself standing, eyes locked on the back of your head. You must feel it, his gaze beating down on you like rays of heat from the sun itself, because you fall silent and your head snaps around. Your eyes find Sanemi's immediately, gaze wide and questioning.

Tomioka looks confused as well. ‘Good,’ Sanemi thinks. He can't wait to see the look on the Water Hashira's face when Sanemi does what he's been wanting to, but admittedly too scared to do for so long – claim you as his in front of everyone.

He lets the fumes of his anger fuel him, gritting his teeth so hard his jaw hurts. And then he's opening his mouth to speak, tongue on the roof of his mouth as all other chatter dies and the eyes of the other Hashira land on him.

“I lo-”

“The Master has arrived!” Twin voices call in unison.

And it's like muscle memory for every single Hashira, falling in line on one knee with their heads bowed as the Master approaches. His arrival extinguishes the fire that burned hazardously within Sanemi just seconds before, soothes the scorching left behind. His head is clear now, the reminder of why you both choose to keep your meetings between just you two evident.

You have a job to do. Defeating this evil comes before all things, even you. Though with the way Sanemi almost blew the lid off of your secret, he's not sure how much longer can go on without openly being with you.

But it sparks something within him - a new fire. One that burns solely for one purpose.

To defeat Kibutsuji Muzan…so that he can finally, and fully have you.

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